This weekend presented it's fair share of challenges. I finally managed to reach my 20 lb mark and then, a week ago, it went away. I can blame parties, birthdays, etc., but the bottom line is, I am up. Yuck.
This weekend, with the Memorial Day fun, I decided to kick it up a notch. I worked out every day. Friday: 20 min. elliptical, 20 min. Cybex, and 10 on the rowing machine. Saturday- 1+ hour of Body Combat (kickboxing). Sunday- 1.5 hour Spin class. Monday- 1+ hour combat. I did my share of exercise and for the most part I felt good.
My scale is at the same weight though! I have been eating smaller portions, but I still did eat 2 burgers on Sunday, ice-cream on Saturday, and ribs today. I guess I should stick to a chicken/fish only regime?? None of these times did I go crazy. I did not eat potato salad, dip, cakes, or fast food.
I need to get back on tracking. It is the only way to keep me honest. Also I have to get back to WW. Those wicked little witches make me work. We will see this week.
Monday, May 31, 2010
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Getting refocused
Well, mom and Robin, I think you are the only two readers of my blog! That's fine. I only lost 1.4 lbs last week, and I think I need to get back into writing every little morsel down. This weekend, however, that did not happen.
Strike 1: Friend's Birthday dinner at a "small plates" restaurant. Even though I only had 1-2 bites of each small plate, we had like 7 or 8 small plates! Not so good, but not as bad as....
Strike 2: Traveling to get a new truck on Saturday- stopped for Mexican. Split a meal with the hubs. He is not one to share, but when it is the "Grande Especial Dinner" he was ok. Granted, it was the only thing I really ate all day, but I am sure this fat fest added 2-3 lbs onto me.
Strike 3: Mother's Day Brunch. Today we met the in-laws and family for a brunch at a waterfront restaurant with a super Sunday Buffet Brunch. Bloody Mary, not too bad. Salad, fruit, & veggies, not so bad either. 1 slice Roast beef...not even that bad, and I did eat some shrimp too. Here is the damage: 1 scoop strawberry shortcake trifle, and (the big offender) 1 slice of chocolate layer cake with whipped cream. It was heaven, but I am not eating anything else today. It was worth it.
Do I feel guilty? A little. Really about the Mexican (I could have made a better choice) and the chocolate cake (a half piece would have been fine). So I will be working out double time Monday- Wednesday, along with limiting carbs to help shed my 2 this week so I can move my total weight loss to over 20 lbs. We will see. By the way, Biggest Loser makeovers? Wow! I think I have a crush on Daris now- he looked great with his new clothes and haircut- I love the "slicked back wavy" look. Plus, now you can see his dimples too! Michael, Sam, and Koli looked handsome too.
Strike 1: Friend's Birthday dinner at a "small plates" restaurant. Even though I only had 1-2 bites of each small plate, we had like 7 or 8 small plates! Not so good, but not as bad as....
Strike 2: Traveling to get a new truck on Saturday- stopped for Mexican. Split a meal with the hubs. He is not one to share, but when it is the "Grande Especial Dinner" he was ok. Granted, it was the only thing I really ate all day, but I am sure this fat fest added 2-3 lbs onto me.
Strike 3: Mother's Day Brunch. Today we met the in-laws and family for a brunch at a waterfront restaurant with a super Sunday Buffet Brunch. Bloody Mary, not too bad. Salad, fruit, & veggies, not so bad either. 1 slice Roast beef...not even that bad, and I did eat some shrimp too. Here is the damage: 1 scoop strawberry shortcake trifle, and (the big offender) 1 slice of chocolate layer cake with whipped cream. It was heaven, but I am not eating anything else today. It was worth it.
Do I feel guilty? A little. Really about the Mexican (I could have made a better choice) and the chocolate cake (a half piece would have been fine). So I will be working out double time Monday- Wednesday, along with limiting carbs to help shed my 2 this week so I can move my total weight loss to over 20 lbs. We will see. By the way, Biggest Loser makeovers? Wow! I think I have a crush on Daris now- he looked great with his new clothes and haircut- I love the "slicked back wavy" look. Plus, now you can see his dimples too! Michael, Sam, and Koli looked handsome too.
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Wish Me Luck
Tomorrow is what I have been affectionately been calling "the Weigh In." (Sounds dramatic like Biggest Loser, even though it's just me and the WW lady). I am hopeful for a 2 lb loss. We will see. I have not been staying for the WW meetings, but since my 2 friends stopped going (they don't even need it!), I may start attending the meeting part. When I have more time off in the summer, I would like to go to a morning meeting. They seem to have inspiring leaders, and members who are at lifetime that share their tips and ideas. (The leader where I go is older and seems cranky. I guess when you lay off pizza for so long, it's bound to make you cranky!)
Years ago I used to stay only if I gained weight! It was my motivation to lose ,so I wouldn't have to stay for the meeting. This is probably not the correct thinking, but I did lose 20 lbs or so when I did this. Lol. Til tomorrow.
Years ago I used to stay only if I gained weight! It was my motivation to lose ,so I wouldn't have to stay for the meeting. This is probably not the correct thinking, but I did lose 20 lbs or so when I did this. Lol. Til tomorrow.
Monday, May 3, 2010
A Day in the Life...
So here it is, a day in the life of this fattie. Here is what I am doing to shed the weight (even if slowly):
Food for the day:
-Arnold Thin Whole Wheat bread (1 WW point)
-2 Tbsp Peanut Butter (4 WW points but worth it)
-1 C OJ (1 WW point)
Snack- homeade trail mix- 14 almonds (2 pts), 1/4 C craisins (2 pts), and 2 tsp. choc. chips (1 pt)
Lunch
-Smart Ones Frozen lunch (4 pts)
-Mott's natural applesauce (1 pt.)
-a handful of black olives (I guess this as 2 points)
-a banana (2 points)
After work
-an orange (1)
Dinner
-2 C bean/turkey chili (8 points) with 1 tbsp lite sour cream (1) and 1 tbsp cheese (1)
-WW Choc. Ice Cream bar (1 point)
I am a little under my points, but that's ok. Also, I exercised heavy today:
-20 minutes CYBEX style elliptical machine
-10 minutes on the rowing machine
-60 minute spin class
I calculated almost 1,000 calories from the workout. While at the gym today, I was terrified to wear this tank top. I mean, I do not do tank tops, but it gets so hot in the spinning room. I told my co-workers that I spin with to "Watch out!" for my boobs at the gym. They assured me that I looked fine, but I hate tight and boob-y! Fortunately this tank was long in the back and I was comfortable enough...I quickly put my hoodie on over to cover myself! I vowed to find more longer tops and even venture into tanks as long as they aren't skin tight.
Food for the day:
-Arnold Thin Whole Wheat bread (1 WW point)
-2 Tbsp Peanut Butter (4 WW points but worth it)
-1 C OJ (1 WW point)
Snack- homeade trail mix- 14 almonds (2 pts), 1/4 C craisins (2 pts), and 2 tsp. choc. chips (1 pt)
Lunch
-Smart Ones Frozen lunch (4 pts)
-Mott's natural applesauce (1 pt.)
-a handful of black olives (I guess this as 2 points)
-a banana (2 points)
After work
-an orange (1)
Dinner
-2 C bean/turkey chili (8 points) with 1 tbsp lite sour cream (1) and 1 tbsp cheese (1)
-WW Choc. Ice Cream bar (1 point)
I am a little under my points, but that's ok. Also, I exercised heavy today:
-20 minutes CYBEX style elliptical machine
-10 minutes on the rowing machine
-60 minute spin class
I calculated almost 1,000 calories from the workout. While at the gym today, I was terrified to wear this tank top. I mean, I do not do tank tops, but it gets so hot in the spinning room. I told my co-workers that I spin with to "Watch out!" for my boobs at the gym. They assured me that I looked fine, but I hate tight and boob-y! Fortunately this tank was long in the back and I was comfortable enough...I quickly put my hoodie on over to cover myself! I vowed to find more longer tops and even venture into tanks as long as they aren't skin tight.
Saturday, May 1, 2010
10 Reasons Why Being Fat Sucks
1. (and this is my all time number one)- Plus sized clothes are horrible. First, the selection is terrible. I feel like it's my punishment for being fat- less choice, less style, less fit. This is my number one motivator for losing weight.
2. Airplane seats (or movies, or anywhere where you don't want to touch someone else, you might because your fat self seeps over to the other side) The last time I was on a plane I kept my legs clenched so tightly and my arms crossed so I wouldn't offend the person on my other side.
3. Speaking of legs, I can't cross mine for more than a few moments. Gross. I mean the simple act of crossing legs, like thin people do. There is too much fat in the way.
4. "Chub Rub"- my affectionate nickname when my legs brush against each other when walking. Each season has a consequence: in summer my legs get red from the chub rub when wearing a skirt; winter brings a chorus of funny sounds when tights, corduroy, or jeans swish together.
5. Funny looks at the gym. You can be fat and still work out. Hell, that's why I am there: to improve myself. So next time that rude ass looks at me funny on the rowing machine, bugger off.
6. Amusements- I can't tell the last time I have been to a park, but I am sure my ass would not fit in a ride...I did hear recently that the "It's A Small World" ride in Disney World has recently been repaired due to the rising weight of the park visitors...YIKES.
7. Thin in-laws.... mine are awesome, but every time I get together with them I am reminded of my gargantuan size.
8. Assumptions...this is similar to #6, but many people assume that all fat people are lazy, incompetent, etc. I consider myself to be well-educated and determined in my career, I am a good cook, and keep a relatively clean house.
9. Role Models... where are they for people "of size?" There aren't any. Our society views fat as second rate... look at the entertainment industry- they couldn't even feature a gorgeous Lane Bryant model who is probably no more than a size 14-16 and looks smokin' hot in her underwear in a commercial on a 9 o'clock tv show because the model had "too much cleavage." Give me a break! The shows were Dancing With the Stars (a favorite) and Desperate Housewives (another favorite). Both shows frequently show half naked thin women-- what kind of message does this send? A messed up one.
10. All the terms used for fat: chubby, heavy, big-boned, weight problem, plump, heavy-set, puffy, flabby, thick, voluptuous (which really just means fat with (bonus!) boobs and ass)..the list goes on and on. One of my (male) black friends said he liked "thick girls because they are all like fried chicken, juicy legs and thighs." I will never forget that disgusting image- What did they think of skinny girls?
Some of these are mostly in my head, I know, but there are a few physical too. The lesson for me is: keep moving and eating right to melt away that fat ass!
Oh, here's the Lane Bryant commercial-
http://insidecurve.lanebryant.com/buzz/the-lingerie-commercial-fox-and-abc-didnt-want-it/
2. Airplane seats (or movies, or anywhere where you don't want to touch someone else, you might because your fat self seeps over to the other side) The last time I was on a plane I kept my legs clenched so tightly and my arms crossed so I wouldn't offend the person on my other side.
3. Speaking of legs, I can't cross mine for more than a few moments. Gross. I mean the simple act of crossing legs, like thin people do. There is too much fat in the way.
4. "Chub Rub"- my affectionate nickname when my legs brush against each other when walking. Each season has a consequence: in summer my legs get red from the chub rub when wearing a skirt; winter brings a chorus of funny sounds when tights, corduroy, or jeans swish together.
5. Funny looks at the gym. You can be fat and still work out. Hell, that's why I am there: to improve myself. So next time that rude ass looks at me funny on the rowing machine, bugger off.
6. Amusements- I can't tell the last time I have been to a park, but I am sure my ass would not fit in a ride...I did hear recently that the "It's A Small World" ride in Disney World has recently been repaired due to the rising weight of the park visitors...YIKES.
7. Thin in-laws.... mine are awesome, but every time I get together with them I am reminded of my gargantuan size.
8. Assumptions...this is similar to #6, but many people assume that all fat people are lazy, incompetent, etc. I consider myself to be well-educated and determined in my career, I am a good cook, and keep a relatively clean house.
9. Role Models... where are they for people "of size?" There aren't any. Our society views fat as second rate... look at the entertainment industry- they couldn't even feature a gorgeous Lane Bryant model who is probably no more than a size 14-16 and looks smokin' hot in her underwear in a commercial on a 9 o'clock tv show because the model had "too much cleavage." Give me a break! The shows were Dancing With the Stars (a favorite) and Desperate Housewives (another favorite). Both shows frequently show half naked thin women-- what kind of message does this send? A messed up one.
10. All the terms used for fat: chubby, heavy, big-boned, weight problem, plump, heavy-set, puffy, flabby, thick, voluptuous (which really just means fat with (bonus!) boobs and ass)..the list goes on and on. One of my (male) black friends said he liked "thick girls because they are all like fried chicken, juicy legs and thighs." I will never forget that disgusting image- What did they think of skinny girls?
Some of these are mostly in my head, I know, but there are a few physical too. The lesson for me is: keep moving and eating right to melt away that fat ass!
Oh, here's the Lane Bryant commercial-
http://insidecurve.lanebryant.com/buzz/the-lingerie-commercial-fox-and-abc-didnt-want-it/
Sick of Fat
I am on a journey to become a healthy woman and eventually a mom....I am happy to share the journey.
From childhood, I was always a bigger kid, but my parents encouraged me to dance and do sports, for crying out loud, I was even a cheerleader. Aware of my size, I never really felt inhibited by it. That's why I always feel so sad for those contestants on the Biggest Loser...they say "I am not living my life..." yadda yadda. (I will save my true opinions about the Biggest Loser for another blog) In high school I was on the swim team and really enjoyed it. In college, I wasn't thin, but as an adult I am now able to see that my college size is probably my ideal.
When I began teaching, all my new friends were partying singles. We had a blast. I partied harder than I ever had at school, and although I was working out a few times a week, it wasn't enough to balance the 15 drinks in a weekend and the late night trips to Mangia Pizza after all those shots!
10 years later, my ass has grown about 5 sizes and I am fed up. Medical complications aside, I feel ugly for the first time in my life. My parents did a tremendous job of teaching us independence and self-confidence; perhaps this is why I never felt awful about my size. Well, reality has sunk in (who knows if that's grammatically correct, sorry Rich!) and I realize that I look terrible and feel terrible too! This fall, I remember not wanting to run into friends because I felt rotten.
Fast forward to May 1. In February, a friend from work and I decided to join Weight Watchers. It was good for us both, although my friend is pretty thin, she wanted to have a killer bikini bod for the summer (and she has it- you look awesome Julie!) We have been working out rigorously, and following plan. I am motivated, focused, and on track. This is the first time I have been on WW for more than 2 months and not given up.
As of this week, I have lost 18.6 lbs.... my goal of 30 lbs by June 1 will be coming all too near. After two slowish weeks, I need to tighten up on my eating! Will I make it? Follow my blog and see!
From childhood, I was always a bigger kid, but my parents encouraged me to dance and do sports, for crying out loud, I was even a cheerleader. Aware of my size, I never really felt inhibited by it. That's why I always feel so sad for those contestants on the Biggest Loser...they say "I am not living my life..." yadda yadda. (I will save my true opinions about the Biggest Loser for another blog) In high school I was on the swim team and really enjoyed it. In college, I wasn't thin, but as an adult I am now able to see that my college size is probably my ideal.
When I began teaching, all my new friends were partying singles. We had a blast. I partied harder than I ever had at school, and although I was working out a few times a week, it wasn't enough to balance the 15 drinks in a weekend and the late night trips to Mangia Pizza after all those shots!
10 years later, my ass has grown about 5 sizes and I am fed up. Medical complications aside, I feel ugly for the first time in my life. My parents did a tremendous job of teaching us independence and self-confidence; perhaps this is why I never felt awful about my size. Well, reality has sunk in (who knows if that's grammatically correct, sorry Rich!) and I realize that I look terrible and feel terrible too! This fall, I remember not wanting to run into friends because I felt rotten.
Fast forward to May 1. In February, a friend from work and I decided to join Weight Watchers. It was good for us both, although my friend is pretty thin, she wanted to have a killer bikini bod for the summer (and she has it- you look awesome Julie!) We have been working out rigorously, and following plan. I am motivated, focused, and on track. This is the first time I have been on WW for more than 2 months and not given up.
As of this week, I have lost 18.6 lbs.... my goal of 30 lbs by June 1 will be coming all too near. After two slowish weeks, I need to tighten up on my eating! Will I make it? Follow my blog and see!
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